Yes I’m back…
After two years of juggling personal life issues and trying to retain my energy for getting well and finding new direction I finally feel ready to share with you and for you to read my writing again. I have found that to live my best life it must be filled with energy. In order to have this I have created, what I call: open spaces and quiet time. I will tell you about this another time.
For now I am sure you are wondering what has happened in the last two years… and yes, it could happen to you too.
Two years ago I discovered I had breast cancer. You know how you can feel completely prepared for the future, knowing that you have no history of cancer and everything pointing to heart disease is taken care of with medication. Well I was in for a rude shock. The doctor was not sure what she was looking at so after five biopsies and waiting the whole weekend for an answer, I finally heard the news.
What can you think or do while you are waiting you might ask. My advice is, firstly, get insurance cover even if you have a medical aid or hospital plan as soon as you can, before it is too late, before you discover you are ill; secondly, don’t go scaring yourself by surfing the internet but do educate yourself about the terminology which is used, where you will get the best care, what the different options you might have for helping your recovery; thirdly, try to be as open as you can to communicating to your close family and friends; and fourthly, surround yourself with people (family, friends and medical practitioners) whom you can trust to support you when you need it most.
Don’t panic!! You will find that everybody has their personal story which takes them on a journey and so will you. You might feel bewildered by the news and all the jargon, you might feel a sense of shame or failure or regret. But what is important is to dig deep into your deepest recesses for courage, strength, faith and gratitude for what you still have. It is an opportunity to take stock of what you have, what you have done and what you can still give to others. To change, means one thing comes to an end while another thing begins.
I was lucky. My tumor was caught early. And so now after regaining my strength I plan to begin a new ‘chapter’ in my life which includes this space.
A warm smile,